OK, lets see whats new lately?! Well, most of you who know me already know that I have been accepted into nursing school!! LITERALLY my dream!! I have waited for so long, and persevered through so much to get to this point! I start on the 22nd!! So close! Id be lying if I said I wasn’t terrified, but I’m also so excited! Nursing school is daunting to say the least, and especially the first week is going to be killer. They have front loaded us pretty heavy to start with, and we even have assignments due before the first day of school!
I feel like I am still in denial a little bit, I cant believe “day one” is finally here! I’ve been procrastinating a tad, not wanting be off break from school and honestly just scared. I’ve been having a bit of self doubt starting to creep in “can I do this?”, “will I be a good nurse?”, “do I have what it takes?”. But I am reassured by all of the people in my small close circle of loved ones that I CAN do this and I will be an amazing nurse. I know the next 2 years of my life will be extremely challenging, but I think I am ready for it!!
One of my biggest worries is keeping my body healthy, and in one piece! I am so scared that something bad and sudden will happen again…and there is no way to tell if it will. I just have to trust that it is my time to shine and give back to the world now. I have plans in place to try to keep my body in the best working order. A schedule that includes gym time again, down time, study time and of course time with Miss. Rosey. I’ve never been great at keeping a schedule in the past, but I know that now more than ever I have to do whatever it takes to make me successful and keep me healthy!
Speaking of health, I have been doing pretty well in that department. I have turned a corner in the last couple months that I have been waiting for over a year for! I am no longer randomly/constantly nauseated!! its so nice to be able to eat more than a couple of bites of food, I feel I am finally back to normal now!! and in the same time frame, I have gained almost 10 lbs! Only thing I have been struggling with lately is pain. I am a chronic pain sufferer. Mostly back pain, but at times all over. At my last doctors apt, I decided to go for it and ask for some tramedol (because my clinic is unable and unwilling to prescribe better pain medicine) and my doctor asked my why I needed it. I explained I have chronic back pain and it has been quite terrible lately. He shockingly decided to give me the tramedol and also order some x-rays of my back. I know they wont show anything, but I was grateful he was willing to look into it at least. He even mentioned possibly prescribing chiropractic care or physical therapy. Now I already see a chiropractor on a fairly regular basis, and did physical therapy in Willits with no improvements, but if it could be covered by my insurance, that could be financially beneficial.
Anyway, I continue to soldier on, thankful for every day I have on this earth. I try to save up my spoons and hope that I have enough every day to do everything I need and want to do! Honestly I cannot complain too much, I am about to finally live my dream of nursing school! I am happy and as healthy as I can be at this point.
I cannot wait to see what the future holds for me!!